Goodbye moon, goodbye stars.

I knew it had to be done. We are putting our house on the market soon and the walls have to be painted and character in the house has to be removed. But I didn't anticipate that when I started to paint over the first star that I would start to feel tears welling up. 

They are just stars. 

But when I started painting over the first one I thought about how excited I had been when I had first picked out the stencil, bought the paint, and started figuring out the placement of the stars.  

Of course I hadn't been excited just for any old stenciling project, this was for the nursery. Before this the room had just been a guest bedroom/my extra clothes closet. But now it was going to house a small being I hadn't met yet and all the adventures that would come with him. 

It hit me, when I had stenciled the first star I was not a mother yet. No one called me " Mommy" yet. No one asked to snuggle on the couch with me (well besides my husband). No one needed me to change their diaper or kiss their boo boos. I think that's really why I was upset about painting over the stars and the sweet little moon. It had been a dream of hope and anticipation for me and now I was living out that dream.

When I started to paint over the first star I realized that I had to get my son involved in painting over them. It just didn't feel right to do this without him. If I was upset about it who knows how he'd feel. Clearly by the photos he was not upset although after they were all painted over he did say "oh my stars!" Like it just occurred to him that they were going away. 

I know in the next house we will have many more memories and fun times but there will always be something special about the first. 

40 Week Comparison!

40 Week Update

Cravings: Milk shakes, oranges

Symptoms: Mucus plug fell out yesterday!!

Complaints: Pelvic pressure

Fun: Going for walks outside!!

Weight gain: 19 lbs total

Waist measurement: 47 1/2 inches

Movement: Yes.

Doctor appointment results: 39 week appointment and still no change....barely dilated at 3/4 of a centimeter. Doctor said to start taking walks and having sex. Hah! 40 week appointment is tomorrow.

Mood: Good...impatient...but good. :)

Planning: Planning on having a baby sometime this week. ;)

Struggles: Just the weight of my stomach and turning at night.....but I'm sleeping really well other than that and taking lots of naps.

Advice: To read books to Harrison while I nurse the baby....I'm going to definitely do that. Lots of advice on how to induce labor....I'm going to wait a day or two before trying any of them, at least till after my doctor appointment tomorrow.

Dreams: I had a dream that I was in church wearing my pajamas....what made it worse was I had to sing in the choir and play in the orchestra. Not many people seemed to notice that I was wearing pajamas.

Baby Size: Watermelon.....seriously.

Does Wedding Ring Fit? No.

Belly button In or Out? Out!

Other events of the week: Nice warm weather, yay!

37 Week Comparison

38 Week Update

Cravings: Chocolate and burgers.

Symptoms: I had a ton of contractions last Saturday, but they weren't consistent and I haven't had any since then.

Complaints: Feeling like a fishbowl.

Weight gain: 19 lbs total

Waist measurement: 47 inches

Movement: Yes

Doctor appointment results: 37 week appointment went good, still not dilating but he said I had softened up a lot since last week. 38 week appointment today he said I'm dilated 3/4 of a centimeter......and asked if I've packed a bag yet. :)

Mood: Content

Planning: Ummm...not much of anything else I can do....even with searching for things to obsess about.

Advice: If I get more contractions to move around (if I've been sitting) or sit (if I've been walking around) to see if they stop.

Dreams: Had a dream that I found out I was pregnant.....and then realized I was still pregnant....and then I was confused. Hah!

Baby Size: Watermelon

Does Wedding Ring Fit? Kinda tight

Belly button In or Out? Out!

Other events of the week: Snow...snow....and more snow. Canceling a lot of things we could have gone to last week.

36 Week Update

Cravings: Milk, Sorbetto, burgers, and licorice

Symptoms: Little bit of back pain here and there after I've been standing too long or moving around too much. Probably means I'm out of shape. ;)

Complaints: TMI alert!!.....Constipation. Oh and a really itchy belly.

Fun: Easter...hiding eggs for Harrison. He had so much fun with his "Bwamas", "Bwampas", Uncle Fred, and Auntie "Daybear"!

Weight gain: 20 lbs total

Waist measurement: 46 1/2 inches

Movement: Easter Sunday night she was kicking me and I could feel her little heels and even moved them up my belly a little. It was fun! Also I'm still getting a lot of Braxton hicks, which I'm excited about and I know are prepping my body for delivery.

Doctor appointment results: My 35 week appointment he said I was measuring closer to 37 weeks. I also asked if I could preregister and he said they no longer need us to do that. I just wanted to make sure that this time I am not having to answer a million questions while having contractions. I'm sure there will still be a lot of questions but at least I'll know there was nothing I could have filled out to shorten them. Had my 36 week appointment today and I'm still measuring 2 weeks early but he says I'm still on schedule and my due date has not changed. No dilating or anything but he said I felt "squishy" which is a good sign things are softening.

Mood: Good!

Planning: Bought a cute comfortable pajama set to wear in the hospital, and slippers. Also bought a little lamb Wubbanub and a pair of pink sunglasses for baby girl. :)

Struggles: Poor Harrison had some sort of stomach flu Monday night and Tuesday. I guess it's to be expected since he was around a ton of kids during Easter weekend.

Advice: I'm sure I received some advice the last 2 weeks but nothing comes to mind.

Dreams/Sleeping: Vivid beyond belief! I wake up feeling like I was just in a movie. Sleeping has been good up to this point. This week though I've been staying up waaaaaay too late and getting up 3 times to pee which makes getting up when Harrison wants to get up kinda hard. Mind you he is an excellent sleeper so I really shouldn't complain and should just go to bed earlier.

Baby Size: Large Cantaloupe

Does Wedding Ring Fit? Kinda tight, not comfortable to wear.

Belly button In or Out? Out! There isn't anymore belly button to poke out! It's unravel almost to being flat again, weird!

Other events of the week: Started using cloth diapers! I didn't even gag cleaning his first poopy diaper! I love my diaper sprayer! Yay! It's been going well so far. However, I did spray the wall twice because I was holding the sprayer backwards...oooops!

34 Week Comparison